This crazy, noisy, wonderfull world

October 22nd, 2011

Spending a few days in NY city before attending a conference on sustainable leadership in Boston next week. What a CRAZY city! People drinking tons of coffee with tons of sugar, walking so fast that they spill half of it on their way. Actually, almost running, are they! It is FACINATING to a person like me just to watch this way of living your life: on the run, needing a lot of coffee and suger and “hurryness” to make you feel you are alive and can get through the day. And the NOISE! Cars honking, people screaming superficialities into their cellphones while they are crossing the streets (and trying not to spill the coffee), loud music in every store you enter. It is CRAZY. Never a silent moment. I watch my own behaviour, what this city makes me feel like doing (shopping, eating, drinking) with a distant, wondering curiosity… Where did THAT come from… I didn´t go here to shop, eat and drink, but to experience and relax. And before day one is over, the automatic pilot has made me buy and eat things I definately don´t need… And I am ENJOYING it, in the moment, for the moment. What is this… I am wondering…

Well, this city is definitely stimulating my senses. I am, in fact, overstimulated to the point, where I´m not really able to feel and sense anything else but the desire to calm my senses. And food, shopping, drinking coffee, walking fast(er) is a good way to do that, I´ve found out. Also for me. So if I stayed here, this is probably what I would do me myself in order to get through the day, for most of my days, I think…

But the consequence is, that the rest of the problems in the worlds seems so distant, so indifferent, so much “not my business” all the while. Which is a real problem, I think. Maybe, if I stayed here a little longer, it would be different. But maybe not? Is this what happens, when you are so busy running around, drinking coffee, working, solving immediate problems, trying to think while you block out all the noise around you? That you loose sight of the bigger perspective and the things that really matters and what would really be good for you and others – in the long run? I get a feeling here, that that is EXACTLY what happens and would happen, for most of us, if we just go with the flow…

But fortunately some people in this noisy, stimulating, amazing city have used the nerve, energy and crazyness of it to create something wonderful. This city has created so many great yoga-teachers, creative thinkers, writers, art-people, street-people AND conscious, great business-leaders (also some really bad ones, I know). And it is probably no coincidence either, that the “occupywallstreet” movement started here:

This city not only has the potential of driving you into an insane automatic pilot of abuse (of food, drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, money, people, working). But also the potential of making you aware of acts you need to take to stay in contact with your heart and your inner self and other people and the planet, on a deeper level, in the middle of all the noise and whirlwind of stimulaters. After visiting this city (once again – I´ve been here twice before but never been so aware of its influence) I am reminded of the choice we have as human beings and must take every day of living our lives with awareness. Not just “following our instincts”, but retreating ourselves every once in a while and asking ourselves, what would be good for us and others – in the long run – to do. It doesn´t happen by itself, it requires conscious effort. And we have it. Now go use it…For the better for this wonderfull world.